You and I both loved

You told me you were certain, no more confusions. You cried, you begged.. so did I. You made promises. I thought I was the happiest little girl...


What's love? :'( Do i love you? Yes yes, i know I do.


I'm dying, I'm hurting, but these sorrows won't show. I shall give you all my love, hold on tight, real tight till the day I couldn't take it anymore.


I love you, that's all that matters. After all, I've made you a part of me. I shall not leave :'(



It shouldn't end, needless to. We'll find ourselves in love again, someday.. no matter how long it takes. I miss your love..


:'(

Hair Dos and ramblings

I've practically disappeared since the last entry on my boyfriend's birthday :) It has been such a long hiatus! But I'm back :D Life has been hectic lately, work, girlfriend duty.. I'll try to make time to at least update my blog a couple of times a month. Thanks to those who are still sticking around and urges me to update :) I will, I promise.


And oh yea, I'm really really grateful to those that greeted me during my birthday. So, thank you people.. thank you! They mean so much :) And to you miss mischievious Jess, I've just read the e-card you sent. Why, thank you. It is indeed very "suprising", thoughtful of you :P


Hmm, I've got nothing much to blog about so I guess I'll just write on hair dos, hehe.

You should always consider which hair do/cut looks best on you despite how much you love a certain hairstyle. It is not ultimately all about your personal taste. You wouldn't want to get unflattering praises when you spend so much time at the mirror fixing your hair, right? ;) As for me, I think I pull off better with the straight hair look.


My golden key *grins*


I look a lil too mature, hmm..



But of course I have to take my face shape into account too when picking an updo. It is the basic rule. Wait, I can't even determine which face shape I am. Oval? Square? I was flipping through Seventeen Magazine when my face shape is categorized under square. Hmm.. I'm pretty sure it's oval.. isn't it?


Oh well, will update more on life later. Sigh..

Dear Mr. Ping (Part II)

Alritey as promised, here are the updates!

On his birthday, we spent the day singing at Red Box Gurney, shopping and movies at Queensbay Mall after dinner.

Seriously, I surfed every possible site on the net and googled for nice restaurants in Penang and sadly I must say, there weren't much choices! Chosed TGI Friday's in the end and made reservations a day earlier. I wanted to suprise him but you know, he's a very shy person so he was a little... urm... unhappy with what I'd planned? :(


There! Got what I mean? He was shocked and a little pissed as well as he thought it was going to be a quiet dinner. I'm sorry baby! :/


Oh wait, before we get to that.. here's what we had for dinner :) And yea, Jamie and Jay met up with us too!


The lovely couple.


My hunny bunny :D By the way, her birthday is coincidentally just a day before Qi Ping's!


We had..

Strawberry suprise & vanilla shake, guess which is mine? Hehe..


For appetizers, we ordered


Mac n cheese


And shrimp martini


The main course were



Sizzlin chicken which he didn't like, the meat was dry


My key west fish



Jamie & Jay's cajun salad



Cookies n cream. Oh my gosh, orgasmic!!



Malt cake, a little too sweet perhaps



Enough of food and this was what exactly happened.



The staffs came over to our table as we chit-chatted away and suprised him with a slice of birthday cake. They made him do some stupid stuffs too which I'm not going to mention ;)



And these friendly friendly people sang him the birthday song too :D



Candle blowing time!!



There goes :) I'm so sorry for the pranks and I promise not to do that the next time okie? *smooches*


Anyway, these photos were actually snapshots of a short video I took the other day which will be added to yet another memory of us together :)


And...... what I've gotten him as present was a tee from Extreme which i hope he likes..


I assume he does because he wore it on our next date! :D Haha.



Sigh, sometimes he could be a S.E.R.I.O.U.S pain in the arse but still, I love him *throws pillow at Qi Ping*


No one makes me happy like the way you do.

Dear Mr. Ping (12/6)

HAPPY 20TH BIRTHDAY!!

*grins* Same age baby, same age XD



The card that kept me busy for days but ended up resting in my drawer.. *sigh* I know, too childish.. I was thinking the same too :)




When I first started dating my boyfriend, I'd been hearing a lot of negativities from acquaintances about how relationship like this will not work. Some even laughed when they got to know my boyfriend is 11 months :D a year younger. I was scared and dazed at first as this whole thing is new to me but you see, that is the biggest peeve that i have with myself. Why should I bother so much about what others have to say? It is my life and I realized, who cares about age gap or anything else when you're gripping happiness in your very own hands? In the end, you are the one who will be receiving all the long-term gain and pleasures.


Well, there are bound to be oppositions against us. Such is life! There are always people who wants to take advantage, take you for granted, be rude to you, render negative treatments you do not deserve.. Oh wait! I thought I'm supposed to be blogging about his birthday? :D Geez, lengthy rants..


What I'm trying to say is that I'm glad we're together. Somewhere along the line and people I crosses path with, I couldn't be any more certain that you are the one. All these while I thought I'm better off my own, but you came and proved me wrong.


Lastly THANK YOU for being so incredibly sweet with your endless suprises. <3 I love you :)



It was his birthday but he bought me a present instead the next day, hmm.. I l-o-v-e it loads though! :D



And oh, if you're reading this.. I want you to know how grateful I am to love and be loved by you :)




More pics and updates soon!! :)

I

There are just disturbing stuffs that are weighing on my mind. I have my reasons. I'm struggling.. struggling with my own principles and i wonder if i’m making the right decisions. I know you guys care for me, I really really do! I've even made promises that I've broken. I did wrong and I'm not proud of it. I'm sorry boyfriend, i'm sorry bro, I'm sorry Shaun and I'm sorry to those that cared. I wish I could open up and speak my heart out but this is just too private and again, I have my own reasons. I'm sorry...


By the way, my acts are at my own will and have nothing to do with anyone. This foolishness shall end here, or I'll get tight slaps from my boyfriend. :D Sorry yea I broke my promise, I love you. Forgive me.